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Sometimes do you wonder whether the decisions you make in life are right? Or wrong?

Do you ever wish to be a kid again and not have to worry about bills, career, relationships, friendships and all things complicated that comes with adulthood?

Were you ever at a crossroad, where you didn't know which road to take. Left or right? And fear that the choice you ultimately make would be the wrong one?

Have you ever felt regret for some things you did and if given the power to turn back time, you would do things differently?

Have you ever felt confused and you did not know what you actually want in life? And which direction to head to?

Have you ever hurt those closest to you but never got a chance to say you're sorry and make things right? Like, the words were just at the tip of your tongue but you just couldn't say it out and you didn't know how to make things better?

Have you ever listened to your heart and went all out to do the things that your heart yearns and NOT the things that your brain tells you what you SHOULD to do?

Have you ever felt trapped? In a life where you do things expected of you, where you do things you were told you should do and NOT what you really want to do? To just conform to the norm and play it safe and lead your life like everyone else ~ go to college, get a degree, work your ass off your entire life [meaning spend most of your days, most of your life actually, confined in a small cubicle staring at the monitor and feel your life wasting away... Looking out the window and wishing you could be out there soaking up the sun and enjoying the fresh air...], spend all your earnings paying off bills for your car, your house and other commitments, get married [at the 'right' age where people think you should get hitched, NOT when you feel ready and your heart tells it's time], have kids [also at the 'right' age, if not, you'd be bombarded with questions like "O why haven't you guys got kids yet? All the other people your age are parents already."], put them through school and by the time you retire and have enough savings, you'd be too old and sickly to enjoy holidays or do whatever you really want to do. When you are really free from all those responsibilities, commitments and expectations and did your part in fulfilling the cycle, it's already too late to do anything you REALLY want.

All these BIG questions, BIG responsibilities and confused state of feelings...

Do I really have to go through all that? Just because it is expected of me? Just to avoid disappointing those who have hopes and faith in me to just go through the 'cycle'?

I just want to be free, to be happy and to enjoy my life the way I want. And not be scrutinised, criticised and nagged for failing to comply with the 'norm cycle'.

Can I? Should I?

I mean, we only live through life once. You cannot turn back time and undo or erase whatever you did. We'll never know what'll happen tomorrow. What if you die tomorrow and today's your final day alive? Will you do things differently and listen to your heart? Or will you die content just going with the flow?

I owe it to myself to be happy. This is my life. If I don't make my own life happy and fulfilled, who else will?

Right?