I Shall NOT be Pissy

As I was driving to work this morning, voices of Chriz and Elaine kept resounding in my head "Don't be so pissy all the time. You'll get wrinkles!!". I had haughtily retorted back at them "There's botox!"

But this morning, I couldn't seem to get their voices outta my head. I do realise that I have been getting really short-fused. Like really really. I snap and glower and get pissy over the slightest things. I realised that's not at all pleasant for people around me. Sigh...

I feel as if my evil twin has taken over me. Morphing me into a snappy, pissy time-bomb who gets really angry all the time over small lil things. I hate it!! This is not ME!! I'm not like this. I shouldn't be like this!! Why, o, why have I turned into this nasy lil being??

I thought really hard and I realised I've started behaving all pissy since I began working at my current job. The portfolio that I handle requires me to deal with really difficult, unreasonable people and that has thinned-out my patience. It's like completely depleted. But... That's not the main reason for my rude-angry-behavior.

I thought long and hard...

Then, it struck me!!

The main culprit for my quick temper has been identified:

Ladies and gentlemen, its... [drum rolls]

"The Traffic"

Ta daaa!!

Each morning, I hadta battle the traffic to get to work. At the end of a long day, I hadta fight it to get home. I hate it!! I really really do. I just cannot deal with being on the road, stuck in a jam for a total of 3 hours daily. And, I just cannot deal with all the dumb drivers out there who really boils me up. I was fortunate enough to work at places in PJ and Hartamas previously where traffic was not so bad. But now, working in the heart of KL is just hell for me coz of the traffic. I CANNOT deal with it. It's been stressing me up so much I'm now this pissy-nasty-rude lil person on the road. I'm not a person to use vulgarities. I frown upon it. But now, I'm using it daily coz of my anger. Gosh... I do feel ashamed of myself. Yet, I cannot help spewing a few '$%*#$' at all the annoying drivers who gets in my way. Aaarrgghh....

OMG!! I'm so OTT-pissy that I'm lashing out at anything and everything, no matter big or small. This is definitely not healthy. Nor cool. Nor nice. This is NOT me!!

Where's the old me??!!

I want the old me back. The old me that's not so pissy easily, that don't swear, that's not so nasty and rude and angry.

For my skin's sake [to keep it wrinkle-free] and also for my well-being, bf, famialy, health and friends and colleagues' sake, I SHALL NOT BE PISSY, ANYMORE!!

I shall remain calm and collected, polite and courteous, nice and sweet and pleasant.

I shall NOT swear, get angry, shout and yell '%$&#' anymore.

I shall NOT let those idiots on the road get on my nerves.

I shall NOT let those 'gunung' people get to me.

I shall BE myself, again!!