I need a HOLIDAY!!!

Have you ever had days when you operate in auto pilot? It's like you just work and work without really realising what you're doing and then halfway through you're suddenly like, "Whoa, what the heck am I doing? What am I typing? It is even correct??!! OMG, gotta check everything I've done to make sure I didn't accidentally do something wrong!!!"

Well, that happened to me lotsa times and for the past few days, this symptom struck me again and again!! Aarrgghh... I call this 'total burn out' and the remedy is... A HOLIDAY!!!!

I had so much to do it wasn't funny. Kept writing down notes and keying in reminders in my phone [which reminds me, I need a NEW PHONE!!!!] to help me organise myself and to keep myself updated on what's been done, what's not, what's urgent, make sure I don't forget meetings, important appointments [like the one I had today, but I missed it due to the @#$@$ jam!! Will b***h about that later], birthdays, etc, etc... I have a list which has so many teeny-weeny notes written all over it and colored with multiple highlighters [my way of coding things] that it looks like a top secret extremely P&C list... Hahaha... Coz nobody else will be able to decipher what's written on it and make sense of it...

Had to rush a LOT of collaterals out for all the promos that's coming this month and next. Hate getting last minute requests. I get it all the time. Last minute want this and that, give info late then expect me to wave a magic wand and miraculously deliver everything within days. I'm no fairy godmother, ok!! I can't perform miracles all the time!! So STOP asking me for things so damn last minute!! Plan your promos few months ahead and STICK to it!!

Ok, enough about work. Getting all worked up already. Time for some reflection on life...

I prefer the good old carefree days, with no responsibilities, no worries except for exams, when everything was taken care of and I don't need to stress about anything in the world. Sigh... Somehow, as a human being, I never fully appreciated what I had until it passed, then, when I look back, that's when I realise I should have not taken those things for granted. But that's always the case, always realising a bit too late. When I first joined the workforce, I wanted to really climb the ladder and someday earn enough and expand my network enough to own something of my own. But now, as I am slowly creeping up the ladder, many just an inch higher, I realise, things are not so easy. Everything comes with a price. With more responsibility, comes more headaches, difficult situations, hard choices to make and stress. Sigh... Well, no pain no gain, I suppose. Nothing comes free. You want something, you hafta be prepared to give something. I guess, I should have anticipated this. Not easy to be in a more responsible position. Now somehow, I find myself missing the days when I was stilla freshie, bright-eyed and eager to learn. No stress, just do what I'm told to do and laugh and joke the day away. Hmmm... Life's weird, isn't it? When you get what you want, it comes with what you don't want. Hahaha....

Ok, dun wanna get emo here... Moving on...

Don't you just HATE, I mean, really HATE the KL traffic? Well, I do! Every morning and especially on Friday evenings. Urrghh... Why, why is traffic so bad in KL? And for no reason other than stupid, inconsiderate drivers. I was stuck in a 2 and a half hours jam today. It was so bad the cars were not moving at all. All coz of inconsiderate kiasu drivers who block the roads coz they're too kiasu to wait til the road ahead of them are clear. Still wanna drive on and block the road for other cars. Made me miss my important appointment. Grrrr... Dunno when will come a day when flying cars will be invented. Or when I can afford a driver to drive me around so that I can just chill in the car and rest and not battle the crazy traffic.

I'm starting to talk crazy... This means, time to zzZZZ... Ciao!